Sunday, 13 May 2007

Being Broke

Ever since I was in hostel I don't think there have been those moments of glory where you are so broke financially that you submit yourself to the horrendous task of even enjoying hostel food!As a post grad student in a foreign land, it feels really different to be broke this time...
Not that I am starving and begging for even grub, its just that I have got a really limited number of resources to count on for a while.How did I deal with it in my under grad years and how am I coping with it now???Shame on me when I think of it,for even in the worst of the crisis that I could have faced then,I was never unhappy.Look at what age does to you.....Now that I have a greater list of opportunities to rely upon in the form of self dependence, instead of enjoying this struggle, I am doing one of my favourite things...Yeah,I'm holding God responsible for it :)
Poor God,I can't imagine being in His/Her shoes.My lover,my soulmate and the greatest bundle of joy in my life has been trying to patiently tolerate my temper tantrums and a hell lot of mood swings.I'm just wondering,is age inversely proportional to sanity? I hope not for I can't bear to think of the vast years ahead then!!!

4 comments:

Bungi said...

I don't think sanity is inversely proportional to age. Rather i think to a point sanity increases as age increases and after reaching the peak, it starts to drop again... ha ha... i am just being hopeful again...

Dr. Abhijit said...

I think as one ages he is supposed to be more capable of handling the trials & tribulations of life through his experiences. But its a sharp contrast to what really happens as I think its about our fixed beleifs/perceptions that we really cling on to which gets supplemented & strengthened & puts a veil on our judgement that sometimes we feel that we r bordering on insanity or maybe more at instances.....

Dr. Abhijit said...

Sometimes past experiences do shape up how we behave, be it normal or stressfull circumstances.But its all about how we go about gathering those experiences in a positive or a negative way, which pile up to have effects correspondingly.There can never be an effect without a cause.

Dr. Abhijit said...

Maybe ur more sensitive than others to have such extreme mood swings. Sensitivity is a boon if only put to good use. Some people r prickly in their disposition meaning overly sensitive.So it's like a double edged sword.I feel these mood swings baring those hormonal &/or menopausal & psychotic rollercoaster patterns, need some analysys & reasoning to be justified.