Sunday, 27 June 2010

Wings.....

Its been ages since I last logged in ! Haven't even completed my series of Varun & Gill's Queensland adventures !Sigh, laziness-somehow I can never get enough of you ! Off late, a lot has been happening in my personal life, no, it's definitely not hormonal and I'm not dreading turning 30 even a wee bit...Somethings are too personal to be put down in a public profile but not personal enough to make you pen down what life teaches you....It's time for another move and Gill and I are exhausted at our fantasy of exploring Australia !!! This time, we have decided one thing very gladly-to live like hippies with minimal basic needs :) Anyway, coming back to the title of this post. "Wings" I feel I have been let go and for a while, I was struggling to feel the tender touch of hands which were probably a symbol of my captivity, a captivity that did not allow me to break rules and follow my heart. Now that it's gone, I suddenly feel I miss it !!!! Why is life so hard if you want to be yourself? Is being yourself so hard that people choose to live a farce??? I chose not to and it has always led me into trouble but this time, the pain is the worst...What do you do when you have been held a captive and then without any sign of any kind, you are let go off??? The fluttering of wings in panic, the palpitations in the heart as you struggle to analyse what's going on and what did you do to deserve it take quite a while....Is this the price you pay for having been harmless? You are suddenly homeless !!!! Thankfully, by the time reality hits you, you realize, oh yes, I've got wings, and I can still spread them out and fly...So yes, I'm going to spread my wings and fly away with my sweetheart to a land where only love is bred (& bread)........Let the sun shine through the clouds, that's all I care for now................